By the gods�I need it this week. A lot of the "fab" is just the fact that I made it through at all. I swear, people start practising for the full moon madness way ahead of time. Itapos;s not until next Tuesday, but everyone this week was totally mental and I nearly joined them. So what went right?
1. I made it through work everyday without reaching through the phone and ripping anyoneapos;s head off. Or reaching through my email and slapping people upside the head.
2. My boss noticed that I was going mental and promised to help me out getting some new business and did some things that he had previously promised. Thereapos;s still a distressing lack of "team" feeling with the way I am treated in general in the office, but at least my boss promised to help me.
3. I am into a new fantasy book (decided to hold off on One Flew over the Cuckooapos;s Nest for a little while) which, while not excellent, is proving to be fairly good and may lead me to read more by this author. All about witchcraft and prejudice and thirst for learning. Just my cup of tea.
4. Had lovely lovely chats with endlessblush which helped keep me from going totally off the deep end and helped me feel like I do SOME good in the world for people about whom I care.
5. I went for�a long walk after work today. First long walk Iapos;ve taken for a long time and it did me good. My legs hurt afterwards, but it was a good thing to do nevertheless. Both for my head and my body. I also scouted some of the apartments that are for rent just a few blocks away. Theyapos;re not terrible.
I intend to spend this weekend doing more of the small things that need to be done in general (like bits of housework) and big things for my sanity - because I already know that Monday is going to be BRUTAL. I will sleep and eat and not go shopping. I will spend time in the sunshine. I will either ignore my phone or come right out and tell people they are being pests and pissing me off. I didnapos;t sleep well last night or the night before (I ended up on the couch once and was shocked to wake up there this morning, on time) and my face looks like I just went 9 rounds with a heavyweight. I threww out my beach chair, so maybe I will have to use a blanket to relax outside, but so be it. Ineed not to be cooped up. I need to notice the leaves changing and the crisp air and the happy people in my neighbourhood. I need to feel like my life does not revolve around my job and the crazy people there. I need to know that I am MORE.
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